while the jacarandas burst
jacarandas shout rebirth! life turns out of winter sleep; yet, spring’s unseasonal storms wash purple tears in torrents a brother, all of a sudden; a mother, cancer let go at last the trees and [...]
of ripples, glistening
sunlight shows the surface ripples, glistens gold on dew-dropped leaves; warms my legs and blinds me as I squint past upper story windows to the vast pristine blue from hidden perches, kookaburras’ laughter draws [...]
Inside a pain flare
Chronic Fatigue is not only the physical pain, discomfort, and difficulty in moving your body, nor that your body feels ten times heavier than it is. Chronic Fatigue is also your [...]
returning
golden floodlight lifts greens to bolder brightness against deep grey – lifts me on a rolling wave of petrichor I can almost hear on my heart’s memory of the ocean – a sudden taste [...]
The gift of being heard
Rhythm disrupted Four months ago, I left Canberra, leaving my pool, and my rhythm of regular exercise in that pool, behind. I had been for a few walks in recent months, some of [...]
cherished
my body leans into it, the warmth: starved of it, these winter days of grey my body reaches up to it, the expanse: breathes again out from under heavy skies my body stretches into [...]
Diary of a Chronically Exhausted Vicar. Episode 58
Reopening the Diary It's been 9 months since I posted an entry in this diary of life as a 'vicar' with Chronic Fatigue. During that time, the symptoms have eased [...]
Resetting boundaries
Or, the discomfort of learning by transgressing I am tired. Achy. I have a house to tidy for the cleaners coming tomorrow. There is a deadline looming for videos to [...]
Milestones and Momentum
Summer: swimming stronger I swam ten minutes straight, strong and consistent backstroke on the tether. And I felt energised after, not worn out. Energised! Can you believe it? Me, who for the 18 [...]
Diary of a Chronically Exhausted Vicar. Episode 20
It's been a while between diary entries. I had another infusion of iron at Christmas - the 12 month supply injected into my blood stream last June only lasted six. I had a couple [...]
Diary of a Chronically Exhausted Vicar. Episode 19
I checked in with the GP this week, and it was a worthwhile visit. I'd been frustrated again over the weekend with the fatigue quickly following any activity. I felt that very little progress [...]
Diary of a Chronically Exhausted Vicar. Episode 18
I have entered the tension zone: feeling a little better and tempted to do the things, yet still finding the doing of things to be exhausting beyond reasonable expectation. This morning I [...]
