still, I ache
life with chronic fatigue I swam to move the muscles: still, the flame raged. I soaked to loose the muscles: still, the flame raged. Spa jets to soothe the muscles: still, the flame [...]
Diary of a Chronically Exhausted Vicar. Episode 52
I mentioned in a recent post that many who experience Chronic Fatigue Syndrome are almost entirely debilitated by it: the effort to get out of bed is enough to send them straight back to [...]
Diary of a Chronically Exhausted Vicar. Episode 51
'I am at the curled-up-in-the-foetal-position-unstoppable-crying stage of lockdown.' This was my social media status update several Thursdays ago. Your response Friends, acquaintances, members of my dispersed and local communities – [...]
Diary of a Chronically Exhausted Vicar. Episode 50
It's a day of weariness and pain today. They're becoming more frequent. I may need to brave the outdoors to return to the chiropractor for the network spinal treatment that has been so helpful [...]
Diary of a Chronically Exhausted Vicar. Episode 49
Ah, the gift of words from others to help us see, understand, anew. A poem. On the healing nature of green after reading Phosphorescence, by Julia Baird 1. 'I see trees of green' [...]
Diary of a Chronically Exhausted Vicar. Episode 48
Stay home, they said. Don't see people, they said. Rest, they said. So, business as usual, I thought. Reader, business was anything but usual. I had just emerged from two weeks' sick [...]
Diary of a Chronically Exhausted Vicar. Episode 47
I am tired. I am frustrated by inconveniences I could overcome before. I am distracted by issues that should never have arisen. I have more work to do than ever, it seems. And I [...]
Diary of a Chronically Exhausted Vicar. Episode 46
Welcome back. Are you back on top of your game, now? You look well. It's good to have you back. I was back leading the gathered community in worship yesterday, and my people were [...]
Diary of a Chronically Exhausted Vicar. Episode 45
A friend recently shared this Banksy piece of art. I resisted. For a start, I am not 'tired', we are well beyond that. More, I am an expert at resting, one need only read [...]
Diary of a Chronically Exhausted Vicar. Episode 44
My friend encouraged me to write lament through this experience of worsening Fatigue. It is a positive sign that I am writing, for writing is a path to healing for me. When I cannot [...]
Diary of a Chronically Exhausted Vicar. Episode 43
I was managing the Fatigue quite well. I had energy to last through entire days, I was starting to swim stronger and longer, I was clear-headed, writing, thinking, creating, with productivity and even a [...]
Diary of a Chronically Exhausted Vicar. Episode 42
I have cried a lot in recent days. I have cried a lot these past five months, to be honest, but most of that has been for Dad, who died, though I still don't [...]